Note from the writer:
This particular event is taken from Radeeks own experiences during this part of his Trials of Manhood.
Not all Tehir clans use the Trials of Manhood and of those that do the
individual trials and rites can vary greatly.
This is by no means what all young men of the Tehir go through and
should not be considered a common practice among all Tehir.
The linen sack over my head is tightly woven and stifling,
making it very difficult to breath. The
leather thongs binding my wrists are painfully tight, leaving no room to
attempt to free myself. I hear the soft
tread of a footfall approaching me, and suddenly I see stars behind my eyes, as
I am struck upon the side of the head, hard.
I hit the floor, falling off the small stool I was occupying, and the
kicking begins. I try to curl into a
ball, making myself as small as I can, but this only leaves my back open for
assault. I hear a sound that is eerily
similar to a stick snapping and a sudden, intense pain in my side tells me I
have at least one broken rib. It’s
nearly impossible to concentrate through the pain of the seemingly constant
blows. It goes on and on… and on.
I regain consciousness; I have no idea how long I’ve been
unconscious or how many times I’ve been beaten senseless. My entire body is in protest, but I make no
sound; to do so would only bring on more punishment, as I’ve found out
before. I hear voices, Tehir
voices. “He’s awake," one
says. A burst of fear goes through my
mind. I know the pain will begin…
again.
Strong hands grasp my arms and pull me to my feet. I groan at the movement, I can’t help it; it
hurts so badly. I am struck in the head
with what I assume to be the fist of one of my tormentors; it brings on a wave
of dizziness. “How many are in your
camp?” a voice asks, in Tehir. I remain
silent, knowing all too well what my silence will bring. “How many?
TELL ME!” I grit my teeth
together, which hurts like hell, but I will not speak; I must not allow myself
to be broken. I will not bring death
upon my people by giving up this information.
It begins again, the beating, the kicking, the torment… the
unbearable pain. I hear screams of
anguish, pain, and agony; they sound so very far away, is someone else here
suffering as well? It takes me a moment
to realize the truth… the screams are my own, and they sound so sad, so
forlorn, and so helpless. Mercifully, I
lose consciousness again.
I wake, spluttering; someone has doused me with water. My hood has been removed and I squint
against the feeble torchlight in the room.
We seem to be in some sort of cave or small cavern, very dimly lit. My captors, there are five of them at the
moment, all garbed and veiled in sanguine, are in the small room with me. Though I can see them, I cannot see them
clearly, for my eyes are swollen nearly shut from the beatings. I have been placed back on my stool and the
thongs that bound my hands behind me have been removed, though my wrists are
now tied securely to the small table before me.
One of my captors places another stool across from me and
sits upon it. “Your camp, how many
raiders are there?” He asks me once
again, for what must be the thousandth time, his voice strangely
reasonable. I attempt to spit at him
but my mouth is too dry, so I grin at him, my lips split and bleeding; he
understands the intent though. He grabs
the index finger of my left hand and gives it a savage twist. I hear a loud CRACK and I scream; I can’t
help it, my finger is broken, bent in a direction it was never meant to go.
“We can do this all day, or rather, I can,” says the Tehir
across from me. Fear courses through
me. “You could save yourself a lot of
pain, only tell me what I wish to know,” he says to me. Knowing the outcome, I shake my head slowly,
almost imperceptibly. I am afraid to
try to speak, my voice, I am sure, would betray my fear.
The seated Tehir sighs and says “Another finger, or something different?” His fingers drum nonchalantly upon the table
as he ponders this question. He nods to
himself as he reaches his decision, “Another finger, I think.” Terror claws at me, deep within my guts, as
he reaches for my hand. I try to curl
my hand into a fist, anything to keep him from those precious digits, to keep
him from breaking another one.
I can’t manage it though; the one broken finger I already
have keeps me from being able to clench my hand. I know what is coming as he grasps the middle finger of my left
hand. “One last chance” he says, his
hand wrapped around my finger. “Tell
me, and this will all be over. We’ll
get you cleaned up, fed, and healed, as good as new.”
I want to, so badly, anything to stop this, but I
can’t. I try to steel myself for what
is going to happen, but I only manage a forlorn look into my tormentors’
eyes. “Go to hell” I mumble, so softly
I doubt he heard me. It’s the most
defiance I can muster.
It seems he did hear me.
“SNAP!” as he wrenches my finger straight up and backward, but he
doesn’t stop there. He keeps his hand
tightly gripped around my finger as he twists it, bending it back and forth,
the broken ends of the bone grinding together.
Blinding agony courses from my hand and up my arm, searing itself into
my brain. My screams, continuous now,
sound so pitiful to me. Tears flow
freely down my cheeks as the man continues working on my finger, I can’t
control them; my agony is all encompassing, it is the only thing I know, this
is now my reality. I realize, just
before everything goes black once again, that I have become pain.
I slowly come to my senses out of a haze of agony to find
myself suspended from a rope tied about my wrists. I don’t know how long I’ve been here. I now have three broken fingers on my left hand and one on my
right, and I have no idea what other injuries I have, but I know there are a
lot. I have at least four broken ribs;
I know this because every breath is a new adventure in pain. I can only raise my head high enough to make
out the feet of my tormentors across the small room. The last round of torture proved that I can’t even scream now, my
throat is so raw from what feels like uncountable months of it, that I can only
manage feeble whimpers, pitiful animal sounds, mewling... begging.
I am broken; I can’t stand any more. The same question over and over. Did I answer it? I can’t remember; hell, I can’t remember who I am. What was the question? Who am I?
How long have I been here? I
lift my head higher, pain coursing through me.
Dizziness assaults me, my vision clouds and then I see a woman robed in
crimson with long dark hair and grey eyes; she is trying to tell me something…
I know she is; I can feel it. I can’t
hear her, what is she saying? Please,
tell me my name, woman; who am I? She
steps closer and reaches her arms out to me.
I can see viridian swirls in her twilight grey eyes and many thin scars
criss-cross her hands and arms. Those
eyes, those scars, they seem somehow familiar; I’ve seen them before. I can’t remember. Please, tell me my name.
Who… am… I? Her lips move and
one word echoes in my mind with the force of a thousand voices. Radeek!
That is my name; my name is Radeek!
My captors see me raise my head and start towards me. As they approach the woman in crimson fades
away into nothing. I know her…somehow. Who is she?
I hurt; I hurt a lot. I am
beyond caring, but at least I’ll die knowing who I am. The woman is gone and in her place stands
men, men who will hurt me. I laugh;
well, I try to laugh. Instead, I cough
up blood, and bone-wracking pain comes with it.
A small but wicked looking knife flashes in the dim
light. I see it coming closer, nearing
the left side of my face. Damn them,
they’re going to take my eye! Fear
courses through my body and mind. I try
to struggle, but I barely moved. I have
nothing left, nothing at all; I am broken and defeated. A burning pain as the knife carves into my
face, deep into the flesh, from my temple to my jaw line. It seems to go on forever, twisting,
turning, and spiraling, like a snake of fire, a burning selshis. I feel the blood streaming down my face.
After the knife-wielder inspects his work and nods in
satisfaction another man then takes my chin in his hand and rubs something into
the wound. It burns, fiercely; it
doesn’t matter, I will die here, I know it; they can do nothing else to me
except end my torment. “Cut him down” I
hear one of the men say. That voice, I
know that voice; I know I do, but my pain-addled brain can’t process it. “Get him to the healers, quickly!” the so
very familiar voice adds.
As the rope is cut two of my captors hold me up, they are
strangely gentle with my broken body.
Just before I lose consciousness the man who wielded the knife leans
over and whispers into my ear. “Well
done Radeek. Your scar has been well
earned and you have resisted with honor and strength for these past eleven
days; you said very little and revealed nothing that would seriously betray
your clan. I am proud to be your father
and to have taken you as my son. You
are Tehir.”
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